钟嘉欣 – 日夜想你

天色很光天窗何事总关起
风声很多心声全部关於你
我也试过痛了倦了都不想 放弃

真的紧紧相拥仍像假欢喜
假的潇洒分开谁又真演戏
我有勇气吻你就会很快乐 为何逃避

曾有过一秒 抱著於一起 忘记要怎样抽离
曾经很开心 一分一刻 我会储起
曾有过感觉 我未想讲起 而秘密会属於你
情感这东西 始终必须运气

真的很多感触如像小把戏
假的很多消息然后怎收尾
爱要有勇气老实说偏顾忌 仍然逃避

曾有过一秒 抱著於一起 忘记要怎样抽离
曾经很开心 一分一刻 我会储起
如你我可以最后於一起
你会知道我日夜想你
从不想多讲 只因不想累你

曾有过一秒 抱著於一起 忘记要怎样抽离
曾经很开心 一分一刻 我会储起
如你我可以最后於一起
你会知道我日夜想你
从不想多讲 都只想保护你

能有这福气 有幸识到你 才决定努力争气
从不讲出口 这麽这麽 为你

~这首歌很好听, --> 事情发生在我身上～

奇怪的感觉 ><

很不想有这种感觉.. 很不舒服.. 不希望和不想知道 "为什么" , 因为在我的内心, 我知道那个原因. 有时候，觉得很不舒服, 假装快乐和努力忘记它. 我知道如果我不开心, 我身边的人也不开心. 所以, 最好只有我一个人知道我现在的感觉. 但是, 时间可以证明一切. 可能我需要一点时间 ^^

Think think think...this is wat's in my mind..

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground,

And I, I pray that something picks me up,

And sets me down in your warm arms.

~ We can't go far, but we can always dream ~

New Moon ^^

New Moon is great, but the ending is really.. well, if you watched it, you definetely know. Rob n Kris did a very good job. Rob is really sexy. This time, in New Moon, Bella is torn between Jacob ( which is her best friend ) and Edward ( her vampire lover ). Jacob and Bella fell in love with each other after Edward left her. But still, Bella chose Edward.





Sometimes, its hard to make decisions. Between two guys. I'm lost too. I should not go any further. The step i made, should not be too obvious or letting you know. So,just let it be a secret...


Hate Myself For Loving You

??

今天想到 ， 是不是因为我令两个男孩失望， 所以现在两个男孩让我失望？？ haiz..


一个他， 是因为我不喜欢你，我们无法沟通。 所以，我必须告诉你真相.. >< 为什么你想放弃我们的友谊？ 真的不能朋友吗？

一个他，你和我是不可能在一起，这么简单。不想浪费时间在你的身上..


我知道你们给我的回忆,令我难以忘记..希望你们能有一个好的生活和快乐。

还有那个他，我希望我可以见你当你回来. 最重要的是,你给我的开心回忆， 会永远在我心里.

~~ 不要再想昨天发生不开心的事， 去想一想如何让自己开心的明天。。 ^^ ~~

宫心计 & 富贵门

Haha.. today watch episode 1 of 宫心计 at AOD. wow, so damn nice. Episode 1 also made me cry jo.. dunno in future how le.. haha ^^ maybe need more tissue?


The dress and jewelerry also so beautiful, and all the actress also. The 主题曲 also geng. hehe. Aiyak, means need to 'chui' drama from today onwards. ^^ I love geh actress and actors is 佘诗曼，my fav idol, 杨怡， 郑嘉颖， 陈豪 ， 米雪， and 关菊英. 佘诗曼 & 杨怡, wow, 很美哦. cant wait to see them fight with each other. haha, so bad. Can learn something also.

「做好事、说好话、存好心」






Today also watch episode 1 of 富贵门. Geng also geh. The 主题曲 can show how geng this movie. But if compare to episode 1 of 宫心计, 宫心计 is more geng today. 1st episode also fight here fight there jo. haha. T.T I like 罗嘉良, 马德钟 ( yeng chai + handsome o ), and 郭可盈 ( pretty ). This movie also got 吕良伟, 袁咏仪, 戚美珍 & 薛家燕, all this are TVB senior and geng geng geh people. haha. so this movie is great la. Haha ^^.




~ Conclusion for both this drama, 1 word can describe , dat is GENG! ok la, i need to continue watch le. Update soon. nitez ^^ ~

我很笨 ？？

情感可控制麼 ? 我希望我可以。

唯一傷害過，而且犧牲太多。。

我若試圖忘記一種痛楚，然而回憶迫使背負更多。。><

寧願你殺掉我　就當我上了一課..

別再忍了。。好應該擺脫傷心的噩運， 而情感 怎麼給踩過也不沉 ..
~這段感情無非傷得太多~


你给我的回忆不是很多，也不是很完美。。


恨我自己，为什么还不可以放开他？

我明白，当你爱上一个人的时后，他開心就夠了。 這種戀愛太罕有， 不須真正擁有。。


明白愛 怎能不知道。。><


我知道我应该放手！！

你开心， 我也会为你开心。。

其实你 可能早知道。。


我很累。。不要再想你了。。><



～忘掉你 也忘了傾訴～

我不懂你..

事到如今 我學識接受
是你要自我與自由
這是你所有

#是我已獲得足夠
滿足你的要求
就求你別提及分手

就我所知
終有日看懂情人方內疚
但是愛不全是佔有
誰會敷我的傷口#

從來不懂你嗎 為何尚要牽掛
但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查
你似未歸家
能留低一吻嗎
尢其是這十數月不知你在哪
還未曾化 講大話
還是真的無瑕
讓我知可以嗎

從來不懂你嗎 為何尚要牽掛
但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查
你似未歸家
能留低一吻嗎
尢其是這十數月不知你在哪
還未曾化 講大話
如果真的無瑕
沒法解釋嗎

從頭學習愛人 如何去守我本份
讓你知再會愛下去
這次是我可劫後重生


從前不懂你嗎 為何我覺可怕
但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查
我會否很差
能和好相處嗎
用自信心相信你便不會再害怕
還未明嗎 好情人
無非取得平衡
是我這方法嗎


钟嘉欣 唱的 《我不懂你》， 对我来说，是好听。。可以说是我的感受..这时候，我每天都会听情歌。去想一想，我的过去的爱情故事.. 每一次有希望，一定会失望。。 所以，爱情是一个游戏。 我不要玩了。 好失败. ><

十分爱？？

今天， 看了十分爱 & 獨家試愛.. 很好看 。。 很感动。。喜欢 stephy & alex 在一起。 他们很可爱 & sweet sweet o... 其实，真的要十分的爱吗？？为什么两个人好好的，要分开/分手？？我相信，如果真心爱一个人， 什么问题也可以 settle 的。。 爱情是要相信对方。。







>< 我很想看 “我的最愛” 啊！！ 一定要看！！ ^^




今天，我学到。。。

～你看到的不一定是真的，真的你未必但得到～

Finally back.. ^^

After a long time, i'm back. Sometimes really lazy to write blog. haha. I am enjoying my college's life more and more. Sem 1 is done, sem 2 is coming. Have a group of good friends and crazy friends. And with all that, whats not to like about college?


* Tomorrow going to Sunway Pyramid for ice skating with friends. Enjoy ~~ going to have a lot of fun *

>< thats all. Will update soon.. maybe.. haha..

i love......

I love hanging out at

Starbucks


i love the feels,the musics and everything. The drink is just good and omg, the food as well. Its so relaxed. Free Wi Fi summore! What i really enjoy to do at the moment is surfing the net at starbucks,enjoy the music and of course,having a cup of fresh brewed coffee or cold drink. Usually when i went there before 11am, i will order the breakfast set! And, that really start my day!




hmm,thats what we call enjoying life rite??? haha..

Tribute to Michael Jackson a.k.a MJ

OMG,its a very sudden and sad news about MJ death. I cant believe he's gone just like that. Although i'm not his huge fans,but i feel sad and its such a big loss to the industry. He's a good singer and dancer,no one could ever replace him. He's ONLY ONE. When i watched his tributes programme, i shed some tears. Its really sad,u know. This song is for you MJ

You are not alone
Though you're far away
For you are not alone
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

( You Are Not Alone by MJ )


Michael Jackson..we know that we had lost you,but we will always remember you in our heart for you always be our King Of POP and may you rest in peace in heaven. We LOVE YOU!

Bangkok = Shopping Paradise

I went for a bangkok trip last Sun with my mom and her friends. 3 days 2 nights trip. All i can say about Bangkok is :

-Shopping Paradise, especially the Chatuchak ( weekend market )and Siom Rum Night Market. You can get almost everything under one roof. Souvenirs,flowers,kitchen stuff, bags,CLOTHES, from the smallest thing to the biggest thing. EVERYTHING! Btw,the things there are cheap,reasonable and affordable. That actually keeps me buying for more and more stuff! OMG. The first day we went to Bangkok,we spent 4++ to 5 hours ( excluding lunch ) in Chatuchak and about 2-3 hours ( including dinner at a fine dining restaurant, we ordered so many foods and the most popular and MUST-TRY in Thailand is Tom Yam Gung with lobsters) in Siom Rum at night. How cool is that? My leg is damn tired but still have to walk. The shopping complexes like Platinium Fashion Mall ( 6th floor!! 4 hours on that + 2-3 hours ), Central World ( about 3 hours) and MBK ( almost like Sungai Wang, about 3-4 hours there). From the 'hours' you see,i guess you already know how shopaholic we are!

-Good food, yeah,the must-try Tom Yam Gung. Its very popular in Thailand. Its so original and taste a lot better than KL. Definetely a must try food in Thailand. haha. Other foods like pineapple fried rice, and fried food is not bad as well. The other must-try drink,is COCONUT! we had our coconut bird nest at a restaurant,and its only 500 baht ( RM50 ). For us,its cheap and affordable. haha

-Taxis and 'tuk-tuk'. Taxi are our daily transport. We use it everyday and everywhere we go. Believe me,the fare is not expensive. The BEST PART is, the 6 of us have to get into 1 taxi!! 1 infront and the other 5 at the back seat. So,its really hard to get in. And some of our leg cramps too. We cant even move. But still,its a very memorable and fun journey. I dont think we are allowed to do that in KL, without seatbelts. Haha. The drivers is polite and friendly too, which you wont see drivers like that in KL. if you know what i mean. The 'tuk-tuk' there is dangerous and risky. I heard from my mom's fren and she said that they could bring you into a 'lorong' and ask for your money. They might even hurt you if you dont. Eventhough a man also,they wont scared. So,we rather take the taxi even we have to pay more. Besides,the way they drive is dangerous and risky. Fast, unstable, driving recklessly and without following the rules. Dont feel that safe. 'Tuk-tuk' is actually a motorcyle in the front and 3 seats behind. dunno how to describe. haha


Thats basically what i think i should post it here.

Right here waiting for you....

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
But how can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it, baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it, baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

Waiting for you

last day.....

12.05.2009

I'm going to remember this date. The day i left my first company. When the first day i came in, i'm glad that i got in. Bcoz this is good opportunity to explore working environment and new beginning, so-called la.. At first, a bit nervous. Thought of cruel manager or some weird ppl around me. But later,i found out that i was actually surrounded by a lot of IT ppl, good colleagues ( including him ) and nice working place. Seriously,i learnt a lot from my job. Responsibility ( meet my target of job everyday ), punctuality ( must reach the office by 8am. but usually i reached the off at 7.45am. For this company,attendance and puntuality is damn important.), team work ( work together as a team. win together lose together,team mates) disipline ( must know how to handle ur job well and even a small mistake,u will get some lessons from ur manager ) and the most important is, i've learnt some basic rules and blah blah about work and that makes me easier when i REALLY work in the future. A good exposure always brings out a better ME in the future. haha. Btw,i learnt some facts about IT too. More to computers. Got friends there so if there's any problems with my computer at home, i will definetely call him! lol. And..i got to learn some Australian accent too. Now,i know how to speak the way that Australian and New Zealander speak.


MORNINIG : I went to work as usual today. Turning on my comp, surfing the net for like 45 mins as 'warm-up', and start to check my daily worksheets. Then,start my jobs normally. I took a few pics just for fun. haha. nothing to do right?

NOON: Lunch time? last night,i planned to go lunch with the whole team,kinda like farewell la. But later today,i feels like not going out with them. I dont want to let them know today is my last day, ESPECIALLY HIM! seriously,i dont need any farewell,i just wanna left this place peacefully. Its ok if no one knows rather than the whole team knows about it. I prefer that way. Guess i cant forget the day i left HIM like this,without revealing the truth! or even a goodbye. i dont want to say goodbye to him, bcoz i cant take it. So,dont blame me for not telling you, Cedric.

5.00pm: Gosh,my most memorable moment at Datacom. I felt sad and at the time nervous. Its been almost 6 months with the company. Gosh.. I gave one of my friend some pens la,bcoz i dun wan to keep them. And he said 'Eh,sourvenir ah? oh,today your last day right?. I was like, SHIT, like that also u know? i just give u some pens. Then, Cedric overheard wat i said and look at me. I never look at him and pretend to talk with my fren. Then the whole team knows it. They ask 'oh,today your last day ah?, and then, Cedric asked 'today your last day? i thought it's next week?'. In a very happy way,i answered 'no la,today is my last day.'. I started to exchange hp no with other frens. Its so sad to left them. Didnt cry la, just handshake with them. My hand is cold and shaking. Talk for about 10 mins and packing up my stuff. Say goodbye is really hard. Especially to him. So,i wave goodbye and head to the door. All of them wave at me and said goodbye. Haha. thats it.

P.S: Will upload some pics later on.







University is my next stop

My Theme Song - Dedicated to Cedric..

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise baby
Don’t fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don’t wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we’re gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don’t want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Leaving my work place thus friday = Leaving HIM

Thats the equation for the week. And,i dont really enjoy my time or so-called last week at my company. Its all HIM. I already did my best to CARE and BE NICE to him. But,unfortunately,he just wont allow me to do so. Its basically a waste of time. Why cant he show me that he care too? or at least say a hi/good morning, or even just a smile. Is that so hard? Last month,we still doing good. We talk each day and laugh and have fun. We had a lot of good time. But why he had changed? I had no idea. Now,we dont even greet each other,or smile or even laugh. Its like you and i are already going separate way. Come on,this is my last week! I dont know when can we see each other again. So,lets spend this week with happy memories. I know,it will never happen. I just pretend to be happy and doing my job. And,i wouldn't care what he thought of me anymore! Bcoz i know i have lost hopes in you....a long time ago...i just want to spend my time peacefully and happily. NOT regrets,broken hearted or sad.

in love again...

Yeah,i'm in love with him again. It will be less than 1 month ( OMG!! ) before i leave him. After a month,i dont know when will i see him again. I'm not sure, maybe a few months or a few years. or.....i dont know. i hope i can really enjoy myself with him for this memorable 1 month , its actually less than a month...

Tim..This is For You..

Tim,you're a good friend of mine. Even though that we only know each other for 4 months,but i really glad that i met you. For the first time i saw you,i thought that you're not a social person. But after i knew you,you're a good friend to talk to. We had build a pretty strong friendship and lets make it last. You have brought me up when i fell and you taught me how to survive in the community. You're right,sometimes we just have to be independent. Thanks Tim for all the advices that you had given me. I really had a lot of funs working with you. We had so much fun with jokes. HAHA. i'll never forget that. So,now you had left from the job and continuing your study soon,i will miss you very soon.

Awesome day....Awkward Night....

10 March 2009 10.30am, aka Awesome Day..

Today is the day i went out with my two guy colleagues to 1U. 'He' fetch us in LRT station. We listened to Mamma Mia soundtrack and it feels good, especially when he's beside me. We reached there and go to GSC cinema to buy our tickets, Confession Of Shopaholic. Its only rm8, not bad. We went for lunch at Vietnam Kitchen afterwards. The foods is good. We talk, share and gossip. haha..then,we went around the mall for a while before we head to cinema. The movie is pretty good. Nice plot and good moral values! i really learn something from it. i give it a A++. LOL. After the movie, we went to The Curve & Ikano Power Centre. We are really SHOPAHOLICS! We go to 'The Street' and look for good food..but since that its almost 5pm, we dont feel like drinking. So, we went to Ikano where 'he' went for a hair cut at Michael Poh, while i and another guy went to Pet Shop. Then, we had a drink at Kluang Station. 'He' still not done yet. So, we went to Borders. Its almost 5.45pm, we went to look for him. He finally done with his new look/hair cut. Hmm, more better than before. Of course,it cost him rm40!!! thats, well, insane!! We went back home, as its almost 6pm. The way he drive is more like fast, but stable. Guess what?? its SO JAM outside. well,6pm is kinda the time where EVERYONE rush home. so,be patient!! i cant believe that i went out from 10am-6pm. its like a day..so tiring and bored,but with him, i feel that its worth it.


10 March 2009, 6.30pm aka Awkward Night..

Its really jam out there. 'He' has become impatient and try to be fast. He received call from his best friend. The guy who followed us want to get down at Hang Tuah station, so that he can go to gym. So,'he' dropped him near Hang Tuah station. Its raining. I saw his 'girl' friend standing there..i was like, OMG. This is AWKWARD!!! Then,the guy get out and later the girl get in. We greeted each other, and introduce ourself. Its always good to make new friends, but not the way i'm doing! not infront of him or his friend!! its AWKWARD. since she got in the car,i just keep my mouth shut. Till 'he' asked me where do i live and how to get there. Seriously, my mood is not with him anymore. something is really wrong. i feel so...left out when he's with her 'girl' friend.

Nightmare?? not really...or is it??

FIRST NIGHTMARE : I and him, with one other guy planned on going to Pavilion this friday to watch a movie ( Confession Of A Shopaholic ) a few days ago. But since that he's moody and stressed out yesterday, i'm afraid to ask him whether he confirm to go or not. I kept my mouth shut till this afternoon, i finally confront him with this:
Me: Hey cedric ( his name ), are you confirmed that we can go out for a movie this friday?
Cedric: Well,yeah, what makes you say that?
Me: I thought u are busy or something..since i never heard anything from you..
Cedric: whats make you say that?
Me, blur: just wondering..so,are we going?
Cedric: yeah,of course. i thought you've planned everything. so,have u plan about the transport? ( He said he will fetch me from Cheras Lrt Station. He said that earlier. I think he doesn't know how to go to BTS station..its ok..)
Me: Sure,i'll wait you there then.

**End of dialogue and both doing their work afterwards**

> Conclusion: Sometimes, guys are so forgetful? or pretending to know nothing? so,we,as gurls should remind them just in case they forgot.. <


SECOND NIGHTMARE: guys,you know what i heard today? i overheard when he's talking on the phone..i heard somthing like 'hey honey..bla bla bla.. i was shocked and curious about that. I didnt dare to ask anything,that will be INSANE. just hope for the best that i heard the wrong thing!

Love is not a experiment....

Yeah,love is not a experiment,definitely not something to try..because once you fell in love,its REAL..

pics of him.....whoah...secret revealed!

There you go guys! He's the ONE! Please tell me what do you think! haha..btw,the left one is pretty old pic the right one could be the new one,i guess..

An Ordinary day....

well,today..hmm, there's nothing special that happen between us. Normal conversation,thats all. I've seen his profile and i saw some pictures of him with some 'girl-friends'. I'm not really very jealous, but i can feel there is a some sort of gap between us. What i mean,is like,who am i? i'm just an ordinary girl which he met for about a month plus. I'm trying not to think that way. Usually a good guy who has a lot of admirers, is pretty risky. and the MAIN POINT is, i dont even know whether he got gf or not. I dont want to aim high,or i will fall down even worse. So,just let it be. Better to know the answer, so i know that i wont have any hope in YOU anymore.. ** Pics of him in next post **

.....

Fine,i admit it again! You totally melt my heart! do you know that? going out for lunch? going to watch movie? going for vacation? i know that looks and sounds nothing to YOU, but to me,it's something special! i would want you to know,if you're not going to PD team outing,i would not go either! if you read this blog ( which is impossible ) please respond back..sorry guys. Its just i cant say this to anyone,so i want to express this in my blog..

Another one??

Today,i found another things we had in common! We kinda love the same kind of soup. I was like, OMG!! what??!! I cant believe that. We had so many things in common,and there's no way that i can ignore that...i feel so happy to have met him..

decision...help!!!

Hello hello..news news! haha..i might be going to Port Dickson next sat and sun. Its actually a team outing at my work place. I'm still thinking whether i should go or not. I have no girl partner! Hmm,the guy i like will go for sure. He gave me some advices and also trying to convince me to go. But,hey, i dont have any 'girl friends' that's pretty close to me! I dont really like to stay with a STRANGER! But,i cant find any better reason not to go, as i dont have to pay a cent. I dont want to miss this outing, or,simply say,i dont want to miss the chance to be with him, even closer.. i got a lot of crazy imagination with him in Port Dickson.. dunno why. I just dont want to miss that! urghh!!! please give me some idea!!

so right...

Yeah,hate is easy...but love takes courage. Love is not easy all the times.. If the one you love doesn't know how you feel, well, unless he's smart.. Take initiative to let him know you care,thats the thing that i would do. Do not be afraid to show who you are,right...?

Falling in love.............gosh!!

whoah...look at the title guys! Falling in love....well,its obvious. Wanna know who's 'him'? He's one my colleague at my work place. Kinda cute,caring,sweet and really a right person to speak to when you're falling..He gave me a lot of advices before this. Its just about a month plus we knew each other,but i felt that we already met a very long time ago. There's something about him that really attract me, he's a good person. Its hard to find someone that nice. And he could be the first one i thought so. We had so many things in common, thats UNBELIEVABLE!! we almost have the same tastes in every way. I felt so happy with him, because he made me smile and laugh everyday! We had so much fun. oh,btw,we just went to Pavilion last 2 days..for our lunch..at Pastamania..with one more guy fren. To make it simple,i'm going out with 2 guys! Its pretty awkward,but i dont feel like it. We walked back to our building while enjoying our sight-seeing around KL, near Lot 10 there,which is a tourist attraction. Feel time passed by very fast with him.. the conclusion is,i fell in love with him.........OMG! haha.. wanna know more? next post...

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